breaking the legs of sheep.

when we run from our shepherd, we run from life.  

its like we don't even think, or we do think we just are thinking wrong.  

i get caught up in this far to much. 

 i don't know what i am doing half the time and the other half i know exactly what i am doing i just don't want to stop. 

i don't have the discipline myself to keep me out of the trouble i so often find my self in.  

when we lack the discipline to stay away from the evil of this world, the shepherd must be our discipline.  

it hurts everyone, it hurts the shepherd, it hurts us, it hurts the other stupid sheep.  

and it takes time to heal, we cant walk on broken legs, so we must be taken care of by the shepherd. 

 He lays us down in green pasture's and plants us beside still waters.  

i know the psalm says leads, but we are in this predicament because we are to hard headed, prideful, self conscious, self depreciating to keep ourselves away.

In all reality all of our problems come from lack of self esteem or pride... 

which usually comes from putting yourself before others or God.

 I saw this in a Huge way when i was a foster parent, each one of those boys thought solely about themselves, 

and i am no different then they are... 

in fact those are the exact words that helped me decide to get out of the foster parenting... 

they came from an authority figure in the organization i was working with... 

he was using it in a different way than i took it, but God new what i needed to hear. 

 i am no different than they are, i am broken and self serving, but we all are.  

we all are no different than the worst of us... 

when i was in high school my band director would always say the band is only as good as its worst player.

  The human race is only as good as the most evil member.  

we all need our legs broken...

 then to be held by the shepherd and laid down in the greenest fields, and by the stillest brooks and be loved, because that is what we respond to. 

 when we have to trust him with every thing and he doesn't let us down, and when we have to rely on him for everything and he provides, then only will we see the beauty of the broken leg.