What in the World am i doing here

I went for a drive today just trying think some things through, and God reminded me of how much he provides for me. I actually was asking my self why i got myself into what i got myself into, and then i asked my self why i worship my creator, the King of kings, and the Lord of lords. i didn't figure it out, because i don't think i ever will. but i did get something. it is amazing to see the many ways God has proided in my/your life. I remember one night i was driving home from the middle of nowhere, like literally the people's house is considered to be in the thriving metropolis of nome, but their mailing address is in china and they have a winnie phone number.. aka the middle of nowhere. anyway i knew i wouldn't make it back without getting gas, but as you know the middle of nowher closes at a quarter till dark. I was driving home and i pulled into a gas station but the lights were off.. Usually means closed. i tried to pull the pump and see if it would work without anybody being there. no luck, then out of the store walks the attendant getting ready to lock up, when he see's me i tell him how far i won't make it if i don't get gas, and he goes inside and turns the pump on for me. It wasn't a magical, or mystical. But i knew God had provided. so tday i passed that same gas station while out on a gas burning drive, and i was reminded of how He provided. I don't want to sound like a wierdo, but i know that God controls everything, he knew what i needed when i needed it and that guy was at his job 15 minutes late becaus God knew i would need him.. Just like when Jesus healed the blind man who was blind just so God could show himself through Jesus at that moment in time. The God that i serve controls everything even down to the flip of a coin, but that is a whole other story. I don't understand why He provides so much, and i live in wonder and amazement on a daily basis. Even in the most mundane of times you can see that God is there Living among us, holding us together.. with laminin..(youtube Louie Giglio- Laminin for explanation)